beth
" September 11, 2023
Happy 12th Birthday to my daughter, Clara!!
[I pray that you see this message]
Oh, sweet girl. It feels like yesterday when I decorated for your 8th Birthday party. It’s hard to believe that it’s been more than 3 years since I’ve seen you. Your 8th birthday party was the last one that I had with you. I’m not sure if you remember but you and Warren spent the morning shopping while I decorated for your surprise party. You were so surprised when you walked in the door and saw all your girlfriends in our kitchen; yelling SURPRISE!! I will always cherish that Birthday. I’m so thankful that I took many pictures and videos that year. Honestly, that Birthday party probably blessed me more than you because of the memories it created. (I still regret that I couldn’t throw Warren a surprise Birthday party before you left because I know how much he wanted that.)
Clara, you mean the world to me. You are the kindest and sweetest girls that I know. You’ve always been selfless and genuine in your love towards others. I never saw or heard you do anything that was disrespectful or hurtful towards anyone. You truly are a gift to this world!!
The Bible says to train up a child in the ways of the Lord so that they never depart from it. I’m confident that you haven’t changed and you’re still the beautiful, smart, witty, and the loving daughter that I know you to be.
I pray every day for you and Warren. I will continue to the rest of my life. I’m reminded of something you told me within minutes of us having to say goodbye. We were driving in Grandma Suderno’s car to drop you and Warren off when you said in the calmest and sweetest tones, “mom, (and then you paused) it’s going to be okay. Jesus said everything is going to be okay.”
You had no idea that years would go by before you’d see me again. But Jesus did. He knew all of it when he told you that. I still believe what he said, “everything will be okay.” I’m not sure how he’ll do it BUT he will.
I have repeated that story a thousand times to others. Clara, your faith is incredible. It’s almost as if God knew your story before you were born. It’s almost as if he created & designed you special for what you and your brothers have had to go through. You probably don’t know this, but your faith (even 3 years ago) has been an anchor to me to this very day.
Sometimes I wonder if you and Warren are angels, but I know that’s impossible because I birthed you two. I do know this, Clara; God’s word is true. Jesus is NOT a liar. He will redeem everything that the enemy stole from you and your siblings. He will require the enemy to pay back 7 TIMES greater.
Clara, you’re absolute blessing to me!! I thank God every day for trusting me with you and Warren. I KNOW that your story, Warren’s story, and even Wyatt’s story is NOT over. OUR story is not over. God has a HUGE plan for our lives. You may only be turning 12 years old today, but you have wisdom beyond your years and I’m confident that the Lord will be using it very soon.
I love you so much Clara. So MUCH!! I pray that this is the last year that I have to miss you and Warren’s Birthdays. We have a lot of catching up to do!
I pray that this day is very special to you, and you’re honored for the beautiful young lady that you’re growing into. Happy 12th Birthday Clara!! I love and miss you and Warren more than you’ll ever know. I love you both so much!
Here’s a virtual hug…
Love, Mom
Ps.. I created a YouTube video pf past memory to celebrate your birthday. See link in comments below.
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Clara, I’m not sure of the narrative (story) that you’re being told about me, but I can tell what I have NOT done…
I have NEVER left you.
I have NEVER given up on trying to see and be with you and Warren.
I have NEVER chosen not to see you.
I am NOT crazy or mentally unstable.
It is Brian and his family who have done EVERYTHING possible to keep me from having ANY form of contact with you.
I will NEVER reject you or Warren.
Clara, I love you so much and would do anything to be with you and Warren again (except for lying or doing anything that goes against the Bible).
By the way, (just in case, there’s miscommunication or lack thereof) Hadid and I bought you an electric piano, some lessons, headphones, clothes, and some other things, which we mailed to your home. I hope that you enjoy everything, and the clothes fit. (I had to guess your size)
